I’m That “Not Worth the Hassle” Kind of Girl
It must be a vibe I give out — that “stay away” energy.
Have you ever thought about how you appear to other people?
I’m extremely self-conscious, so I view myself as a blurred image filled with frenetic energy. On the outside, though, I know my awkwardness comes off as antisocial behavior with an unapproachable air to boot. The only ones who seem to be capable of inviting me into their circles of conversation are the extreme extroverts or the oblivious drunks of the world.
I’ve considered trying to change these aspects of myself, but putting it into action — well, that’s the hard part, isn’t it?
And, if I’m honest, 99% of the people I meet don’t seem to be worth that extra effort.
On the flip side (which is also a downside), most people view me as a hassle to get to know.
These elements have for the most part determined how a lot of my adult life has progressed.
Guys especially are notorious for holding me at arm’s length — maybe to keep me from getting attached, especially once I actually do get talking.
I also know what’s wrong with me to that degree: I sometimes come off as “too intense” if I really hit it off with someone. Maybe I overshare. Or…
