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The Words “I’m Happy for You” Never Seemed So Hollow
If only singing, “Let it go,” would help in this instance…
November 2021 must be the month for breakup feels — especially since Taylor Swift and Adele, heavy-hitters in the realm of it-hurts-so-good music, release their highly anticipated albums this month.
But I’m not here to talk about that (at least not yet — not this time).
Rather, I want to delve deep into those breakup feels.
Funny, really, since I’ve never broken up with someone or vice-versa. You would think the feeling would be alien to me, something imagined rather than felt knife-sharp in the heart.
But that friend who I could see the glimmer of something more with? He’s still a part of the picture, though I sometimes wish he weren’t. Each and every time I have to speak to him, I feel the knife dig a little deeper — and I wonder why I’m doing this slow wound-by-association with him.
I almost wish he would let go of me as a friend first before I have to do the unscrupulous thing and cut ties to save myself.
(I’m a coward, I know.)
I have to lie through my teeth and say, “I’m so happy for you” — at Christmas, in all those moments when our lives skim past each other fleetingly…
