The Saddest Love Songs Go Nowhere

A Poem

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feels like i haven’t written in days
and my head feels fuzzy
like i’m losing time
in bytes and zeroes

but then you come again,
right to the forefront of my brain,
and i wonder what i did wrong
to earn all this petty scorn

and then i ask myself
those same old sorry questions
like you have the answers
to my every living whim

i could knock on your door again,
but you wouldn’t answer
because to you i’m just a memory
gone sour to the taste

let me in, let me in —
but no, no, you lost me
somewhere along the way
in your trials of self-discovery

i asked you so often
if i even mattered to you,
and the greatest deceit was how
i believed i was the one in the wrong

and then there we are again,
back to picture-perfect memories
that we can’t even look in the eye
because they were all…