The Breakup

A Poem

Photo by Mohamed Nohassi on Unsplash

we were over before we even began,
and i had no idea till the last moment
when my heart stilled in my chest
and stars winked out of being in my mind.

i don’t feel you anymore —
if i ever did at all —
in this game of grand delusions
that help us while away the time.

loving you is a drug,
and i know it, i know it,
that you’d get tired of me
faster than i could say sorry.

i never knew love before now —
as if that green-eyed boy was just a shadow —
but i know there’s no point to it all
because praying just makes me cry.

and i’m no good for anyone,
like i’m an infection festering,
because i’m just a girl
who waited too long on love.

and i’m sad that i can’t keep up
with your happy daylight
because i’m muted in grays
like a wind-torn sky.