Sorrow Like Mine

A Poem

Photo by Caio: https://www.pexels.com/photo/selective-focus-photography-of-woman-near-outdoor-3054535/

i’m a reeling ball of particles
in this patterned galaxy,
but no one can save
a dying star

i like to think my pain
is something universal,
but then i open my mouth
and no one seems to hear

sometimes i cry
without reason,
without notion,
without need

sometimes i stare up
at white skies
and wonder
why i persist

but i never voice
these things aloud,
lest someone ring
a warning bell

i starve my mind
of happy thoughts —
not because i want to
but because i can’t help it

i’m not a supernova
going out in a spectacle,
but i feel just as chaotic
in this shell i call my own

i like to pretend i’m special,
extraordinary to the max —
but then i look outside
and wonder why i thought so