Shame On Me

A Poem

Photo by Dmitry Schemelev on Unsplash

i blush once,
shame on you —

i blush twice,
shame on us —

and there’s a heartbeat to this madness,
a pulse point of the rush and tear of love,
as if we’re creatures of so many bad habits

and it can’t be measured, this heat wave
of riddled senses in dark spaces,
the shades of forbidden love

and i’m losing myself in inches
because you’re my drug
in infinite doses

i kiss you once,
shame on me —

you kiss me back,
shame on you —

and there’s a tide to all our hopeless friction,
a note of worry in your eyes even now,
because you don’t want to fall hard

and maybe it’s far too late for us to go back
to that simple, easy realm of ‘just friends’
because now we’re something more

and tomorrow you’ll say you regret
leading me on like this, like this,
with her lipstick on your mouth