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Psychedelic Rodeo
A Poem
i’m losing my mind
in shafts of moonlight
through the cracked window
as i try and fail to fall asleep
i’m counting stars —
just specks of dust littered
all along the ceiling of my mind
as i crave a way to shut off the noise
i’m telling you lies
just to get you to trust me
even though i know love is harder
than a brush of a kiss with a stranger
i’m singing alone,
humming to lost tunes
from some bygone decade
that i can feel deep in my bones
i’m sighing loud
and hoping to dream big
even though no one will save me
and i can’t even protect my heart anymore
i’m standing
on a precipice i made
so, so long ago that i think i forgot
what it means to really fight for what i need
i’m chasing hope
in the guise of strange shadows
clawing along the edges of the hall
as a clock ticks somewhere in the background
