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New Job Jitters Get Me Every Time
Just the word “new” is enough to make my anxiety spike.
It’s almost 9 PM as I write this — after a failed attempt to go to sleep at 6 PM so that my 8 AM meeting for my new job isn’t such a shock to my system. I spent my holiday break trying to do anything but think about this new job.
There have already been a few hiccups prior to day one. A close friend was even surprised I was still taking the job, considering the clerical error that would be costing me health benefits and sick leave (but said friend doesn’t have to worry about paying steep healthcare premiums either — so maybe we shouldn’t give her opinion that much weight).
Other than the fact that the job is a seeming contract position where I can get booted at any time, I think I can do what the job entails. It’s a technical support position. Surely having done a degree in IT gives me enough of a foundation where I shouldn’t worry, right? Right?
But the truth is — I’m actually quite scared. Why?
I’ve never been more than a glorified cashier.
I’ve had a lot of retail jobs — some that lasted years, some that lasted days. These positions have led me to have a mindset where I feel like my only strong workplace-based traits involve customer…
