Lost in Mysteries of You

A Poem

Photo by Vitaly: https://www.pexels.com/photo/dawn-fashion-love-woman-14844573/

these painted skies of theirs
have never done much for me,
and i find myself lingering
on the tides of you and me

heavenward —
they say i’ll find answers there,
but i don’t believe a word of it
because god’s left me behind before

and i could pray and pray
but nothing would ever reveal
the traces of your heartbeat
in the pulse of the universe

i look in the mirror every day
and don’t see the reflection
of a person who could
ever fascinate you

i tell myself
none of it matters
because i’m lonely
by choice

these twisted tales of theirs
never left me riveted,
but i tried to pretend
just for your sake

hellbound —
maybe that’s where i’m going
because the devil felt like a friend
in an underworld of outcasts