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I’m Still Looking For A Thousand Ways to Say “I Love You”
Oh, I wished upon so many stars for you.
Did you know I once looked into every crowd with the hope I might see you staring back at me one day? But then I stopped looking. I grew tired of the disappointment and the certainty that you were gone for good.
Now I walk through hallways without thinking of what it might be like to meet you again. Once upon a time, I was ready to meet you halfway across any distance. But now I’m just trying to claw my way through this complicated web of a life on my own. A solitary journey, perhaps, but I’ve trained myself for it.
You gave up too soon, and I still haven’t quite forgiven you for it.
Did you know I imagined what it would be like to meet you movement for movement in a battle of the senses? I would have crossed the dance floor for you and waited in every shadow just to come into the light for you. You never realized how much I could do for you, did you? I would have surprised you, but most of all I would have surprised myself.
But no, I didn’t get a chance. You left on the first train out as if you were looking for an escape route. How could I have known that last look would be the final time I saw you? You wouldn’t be darkening my door again — not if you could help it.
