I Put Myself First Now

A Poem

Photo by Nikola Topić on Unsplash

hey,
do you ever think of me
and how i loved so fierce,
enough to scare you so much
you’d stare as if I were a mystery?

and do you ever remember
the way i’d circle your orbit
as if you were the number one,
the only star i’d ever follow like a guide?

and do you ever tell her
i once promised you the moon
because nothing seemed good enough
for the marvel that i thought you were?

and do you always laugh on cue
as if i’m the punchline of your favorite joke
because maybe it hurts you just a little
that you used me and broke me to pieces?

but it’s different now, isn’t it,
because i’m on the small screen
and telling lies for fun and profit,
all the while spinning our forgotten story?

’cause the truth is, honey,
i’m not really thinking of you
because these days i put myself first,
like i should have done all along.