Fade Away

A Poem

Photo by Carlos Quintero on Unsplash

there were so many nights
i stayed awake,
just counting my breaths,
as if i had true control
over what i felt

there were so many sunrises
when i rose,
just looking out my window,
as if the nature of love
had bespelled me

and all i wanted was
for you to fade away, fade away,
as if you were a ghost
no longer welcome
in my mind

there were so many days
i passed through
as if i were nothing
but a doll
on puppet strings

there were so many moments
i fought to land
on my feet
after the stumble
down the rabbit hole

and all i wanted was
for you to fade away, fade away,
as if that would save me
when i’d already given up
so much time