Bright Spots

A Poem

Photo by Kristopher Roller on Unsplash

i drifted off to sleep
in memories cuddled close
of you, just you, in all your splendor
as if you were still mine to have and hold.

i captured the castle
but looked around in the end
and wondered what it was all for
since i locked you out of the story for good.

i thought i could live
in a world divorced from you,
but then why am i the one hurting
while you go off on all those thrill rides?

today i saw the moon up close
and felt like i could catch it in my palm
as if it were just a toy, a plaything, to fetch —
but no, it was an illusion, another thing to fool me.

i take these dreams of you again
and wish i could throw them in the ocean,
but getting rid of you isn’t that easy — i know, i know —
because you’re the blood to my veins, the marrow to my bones.

and i can’t keep running —
no more, no more, no more —
because there’s no escaping the truth
that you’re the one who kept me whole once upon a time.